Dear Empath…
Hello my friend,
Thank you for being here
I see you, I hear you, I feel you (literally)
I have been sensitive to energies, emotions, thoughts and actions of others all my life.
I never knew there was a name for what I experienced as a child and adolescence.. Honestly I just thought there was something seriously wrong with me, having so many thoughts and feelings I didn’t understand or know how to deal with.
I was an absolute mess.
I didn’t know what depression or anxiety was. I only knew the physical sensations and repetitive thoughts I was experiencing. I felt so stuck, isolated and alone in my suffering. I honestly believed someone must have put me here to suffer. I must have done something seriously wrong.
I begged for it all to be over and would often fantasize about how I could get out of this world. But the fear of the unknown kept me here… suffering.
It was all too much feeling all the things, tortured by my mind and heavy emotions.
I just wanted to be loved and accepted and so I would give to everyone other than myself the love and acceptance I craved in the hopes I would receive it in return. I was a chronic perfectionist and people pleaser and tried to keep everyone around me happy. Perhaps because I couldn’t handle all their pain.
Maybe if I could fix them and make their pain go away, I wouldn’t hurt anymore, maybe they would love me, maybe they would stay.
My wounds continued to attract more of the same experiences of abandonment and rejection and I continued to encounter people with deep pain, like walking trauma. It was excruciating. I would look around and see zombies, people doing the same thing day after day that made them miserable.
When I was a remedial masseuse, with every massage I would absorb the person’s energy, emotions and pain into my body and energetic field. I felt so heavy and it got to the point where I couldn’t hold myself up during a massage. I was literally massaging people and almost doing an entire forward fold, collapsing through my spine, I ran out of strength to hold my own body up because of all the energy I was absorbing from others.
I didn’t know how to protect myself energetically, I didn’t know how to set boundaries, I didn’t know what my needs were and how to meet them, I didn’t know how to clear my energetic field and support myself as an empath.
Honestly I didn’t even know what an empath was or if I even was one. I think initially I wanted to be one to give me a reason for the way I was and to feel special. I felt so unworthy for so long that when I came across the concept of empath and indigo children, I wanted to be one so bad, to feel like I was something, that maybe I was special.
But even having this title, it didn’t give me the tools or wisdom of how to deal with my suffering.
It wasn’t until 2020 that I really began to learn, understand and practice effectively how to discern what’s mine and what’s not, how to navigate the emotional turmoil and energetic clogging and set boundaries.
I had taken a break from massage when moving to NZ and in my second trimester of pregnancy in 2020 I decided to go back to massage and yoga, working for myself. But for some reason I was struggling to attract massage clients. The yoga classes were going amazing but no massage clients were coming through. I was shocked and confused.
When I became curious about why this was the case I realised I didn’t really want the massage clients, I was repelling them energetically because of my previous experience as a masseuse. I didn’t want to absorb their energy, to feel and hold their pain in my body.
This awareness allowed me to take my power back and ask the question, what do I want to do about this?
I came across a book called Energetic Boundaries by Cyndi Dale and I followed her guided practices in setting boundaries as well as how to begin and end a session with a client to allow the release of any energy I may have absorbed.
As soon as I had these tools in my belt, the clients began to show up. Kinda like magic 😆
This was super exciting.
I noticed that with these practices, I felt so much lighter after sessions as if I was receiving the healing along with my client, simply by clearing my energy daily before and after clients. I wasn’t just clearing myself of their energy but also my own energy that was stuck.
Since then I have run over 160 workshops and retreats all over NZ, I have worked with thousands of clients supporting the release of trauma, core wounds, limiting beliefs and conditioning whilst maintaining my energetic integrity and physical, mental and emotional health and balance.
My muscle of discernment has become so strong that there is no confusion whatsoever between what’s my emotion, thought, wound, belief and what belongs to another.
I know how to clear my energy effectively and efficiently.
I know how to lean into my emotions, release them and integrate them.
I am now able to support others in their healing journey at an incredible depth that I never thought would be possible.
I am now empowered by others’ expression, their willingness to be so open, vulnerable and express their pain and their joy.
What once caused me so much pain and suffering now lights me up, empowers me and strengthens me.
For as we come together and learn to feel, embrace, express, release and integrate our emotions, wounds and experiences we create a whole new world.
One where it is safe to be yourself, it is safe to be open and receive, it is safe to feel and express, it is safe to experience love, joy, vulnerability and personal power.
A world where we support one another to heal, grow, expand, and love one another not in spite of our differences but because of our differences and our sameness. We are one, we are unique, we are here to experience all that it means to be human.
Dear Empath,
You are seen.
You are heard.
You are felt.
You are valid.
You are loved.
You are supported.
I love you.
If you resonate with being an empath and need support, I work one on one supporting clients in discernment, worthiness, self-love, boundary setting and living authentically. You can learn more about working with me here
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Podcast Episode 31: Dear Empath: Navigating Life As An Empath